We'll give this a go!

I have an urge to blog about autism. It consumes me lately, and time I spend doing other things weigh on me and make me feel guilty that I'm not making myself available on the blogosphere to share the journey with others. But then I start, and then I start crying. The tears pretty much just come whenever I say to someone (new or known), "I have two autistic children..." No matter the context, no matter the surroundings, the tears just come. After lengthy discussion with my physician about medications, her response was, "I think you're grieving." Well, yeah, no kidding! But I mean my daughter is almost 7, and she was diagnosed spot on at 2. So am I grieving for the last 5 years? I mean, when do I move on to the other phases of this emotional roller coaster? And besides, I don't agree with the grieving thing. Especially since I seek my doctor's fine medicational expertise mostly around IEP times. I "grieve" about IEPs? I don't think so. I'm sure we'll get more into this soon. But here is a first post. I am looking forward to sharing and talking and maybe someone out there will offer me good words, and I can pass it on to someone else and we'll all be holding hands and singing "Kumbya" soon.